Coming off of Dad's appointment on Monday, the entire family was full of smiles. It was an unusual feeling, a small sense of relief (at least for the time being) since October. Although I was quickly brought back down to reality when a friend gave me the news that his mom's lung cancer had returned in her spine. My heart sank.
It doesn't feel fair. To me it's not fair that God chose my Dad and my family for our journey, and it doesn't seem fair that God chose my friend, his family and his mom for their journey. It may not be "fair", but I know that God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers. And thankfully on this journey my family has not been alone, and I know his family will not be alone either. I have been so blessed for this journey to be filled with so many people praying for my Dad, that I ask for those on my journey to continue to pray for Dad and my friend's Mom. I wear my Dad's bracelet every day, and every day I'm reminded that "No One Fights Alone." We are all in this together. During Dad's treatment and day to day, we could feel the power of prayer- and my friend's family needs to feel the power of prayer more than ever.
Our journey in life isn't fair- it's filled with extremely difficult moments, where we hit our lowest of lows but also experience our highest of highs. But life is all about maneuvering through these times, appreciating the lowest of lows, and never taking for granted the highest of highs.
Last night I sat and watched tv with Dad and realized this was the first time in a long I wasn't stressed and thinking too far into the future, or extremely concerned about his next scan (which is only 8 weeks away). I realized I was finally living in the present, and it felt good.
In a life that has provided so many blessings and so much to be thankful for, it's hard being selfish and wondering why this is happening to our friends and family. I do believe God has his plan and only deals these unfavorable cards to those he deems strong enough and capable of handling it best. We are blessed that our loved ones aren't fighting these fights alone, there are people who certainly aren't as fortunate.
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