Sunday's sermon at church was absolutely perfect for my family, the title: 'Sunday Is Coming'. Our Pastor explained how horrible of a day Good Friday was for Jesus, and how many of us experience our own personal 'Good Fridays' in life. But just as Jesus experienced his Good Friday, he also experience Easter Sunday- the day of Resurrection, a day of celebration.
The same God that gives us our own 'Good Fridays', is the same God that gives us our 'Easter Sundays'- Sunday is always coming.
Yesterday, Sunday came for our family. Dad's MRI noted no additional tumor growth, and the area of concern showed less contrast- all good news! The MRI also showed a slight bleed, but after reviewing the MRI with Dad's Neurosurgeon, Dad's Oncologist wasn't too concerned with the bleed. We are lucky to have two doctors who work so well together, and two doctors who are extremely cautious, so Dad will be having a CAT scan in 2 weeks to monitor the bleed. We have been told to continue to monitor Dad's blood pressure and his headaches, as these are all side effects of his Avastin treatment. But all in all, the appointment went well.
We know that there are many 'Good Fridays' for us in the future- days filled with pain, anxiety, fear- days that will test our faith and determination of this path, but we continue to remember that Sunday is coming.
Dad started another round of chemo Monday night, which will continue every 28 days, and another Avastin IV treatment yesterday, which will continue every 2 weeks. We have an extremely long road ahead, but we are so blessed with a good MRI result and so blessed that Dad has been feeling so well.
Lately Dad's been smiling, laughing- just being my old Dad again, and seeing that brings a smile to my face that no one can take away.
We have a new normal. Living with cancer has become our new normal. You hear about cancer, you see how cancer impacts others, but you never think cancer is something that will impact you. But happiness comes when we stop complaining about the troubles we have and offer thanks for all the troubles we don't have- and we are truly happy and thankful.
I often search for quotes from other cancer survivors, fighters, and caregivers, because many times I feel like others say exactly how I'm feeling better than I could ever say- and this quote was no exception:
"If it weren't for cancer I'd have the perfect life. But if it weren't for cancer, would I even realize it."
We are blessed. This journey is a blessing- as weird as that might sound to others- we have been blessed. I've said this before, I've been given this gift of quality time with Dad, regardless if this quality time lasts 6 more months or 16 more years. I've been able to say all the things I wanted to say, do all the things I wanted to be able to do for him, and take mental snapshots of moments with him- moments I'll cherish forever. There is only one person who knows when our last moment will be here on Earth, and he does not wear a white coat or a green mask- so until then, until that moment happens, I'll take it all one day at a time and smile through it all, because even though cancer sucks, God is truly good.
Keep praying and we will keep fighting to BTHO Brain Cancer!
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